The end of my Throwback Thursday Sock Saturday contest is coming up (11/14/15): for those of you who have tweeted, linked or blogged your sock entries, thank you! Man are there some awesome socks out there.
For those of you who haven’t yet, send me your socks!! They can be made, bought, pinned, dug out of drawers mismatched…have at it. Remember, the winner of the contest gets their choice of a free signed copy of either Hush or my upcoming novel, What it Takes!
Sock Saturday is a little ritual I created for one of my main characters in Hush, Cam, and his roommate Nate. It was one of those moments that came to me, made me laugh, and have been told by readers that they enjoyed throughout.
Although there are tiny moments I could share with you from Hush, I thought I’d share an excerpt that is also one of my favorite moments in the book. The scene this is lifted from was lovely to write (even the intense sexy part that comes before this) — it’s one of the first time we see Wren let down some of his walls. It’s the first time he’s been unguarded enough to let himself get to know Cam. And for Cam, this was a favorite moment to write; so much of this book was this journey for him. I loved giving him this empowering moment.
“Won’t Nate be back?” he asks.
“Good point,” Cam picks his phone back up.
“What are you doing?” Wren turns onto his side, fluffing Cam’s pillow under his head.
“For the first time in two years, I’m soxiling him,” Cam says with a laugh. “I’ve never gotten to. Oh the power!” he jokes. Wren smiles and it’s the first true one Cam’s seen that looks true and easy.
“Help me find a good picture,” Cam puts his head close to Wren’s on the pillow and holds the phone up for both of them to look at.
“Of what?” Wren tilts his head to see.
“Socks,” Cam says.
“What the hell, socks?”
“You know how people used to do the sock over the door thing as a signal?” Cam asks.
“Oh,yeah,” Wren says.
“So Nate thought it was hilarious. but wasn’t going to do it. So he started texting me the word ‘socks,’ and eventually we started calling it ‘soxiling’. Or ‘Sock Saturday,’ because that’s usually when I get booted. Then he started sending me pictures of funny socks.”
“Hey, I have a question.” Wren half sits and looks at Cam seriously. “Have you, like, come out to anyone?”
“Well, they set me up with Jason, so yeah. I mean,” Cam shrugs. “I didn’t come out and say the words.”
“Hmm.” Wren lies back down. Cam is searching for the right pair of socks when Wren stops him. “Those.”
“Make it official,” Wren says.
“What, should I add ‘Hey I’m gay’ or something?” Cam jokes, copying the picture and dropping it into a text.
“If you want to. I don’t know. I…when I finally came out, there was a lot of power in saying the words. It was…” Wren squints as if he’s struggling to find the words. “Really affirming and liberating.”
“Hmm.” Cam lowers his phone for a minute and thinks.
“I probably shouldn’t assume anything,” Wren rushes to add. “I mean that you’re gay or bi or anything.”
“I think I’d say I’m gay,” Cam says. He looks over and Wren seriously, examines the light flecks of gold in his eyes. “I haven’t say anything to Peyton. Or my parents.”
“Who is Peyton, anyway?” Wren asks.
“My twin sister,” Cam says. Wren’s eyebrows shoot up.
“Yep,” Cam says.
“Do you think she — they — will have any problem with it?”
Cam thinks for a moment. “Not Peyton. Knowing her, she already knows. She’s always been better at figuring me out than I have.” Wren snorts softly and Cam shoots him a questioning look. Wren just gestures for Cam to continue.
“I’m not…I don’t know, when I figured this all out, I wasn’t ashamed or afraid or necessarily worried about if I was gay. Am. It feels….right. My parents, though…”
“Are they conservative?” Wren asks.
“Well, we’re from nowhere Nebraska. I really have no idea how they’ll react, but I doubt it will be pleasant.” Cam bites his lip and takes a deep breath, pushing that away. He’s got Wren in his bed, talking and open-limbed and easy and he wants to capture it, stretch the moment as long as he can before Wren backs off. He tilts the phone back so Wren can see and types, You’ve been soxiled. Oh and by the way, I’m gay. This makes Wren laugh, and Cam laughs too. It does feel a little liberating; not because Nate doesn’t know, but because he’s not yet said the words to anyone, and it feels a little like coming home.
My upcoming novel, What it Takes, will be available for pre-sale starting November 10th, so keep your eyes peeled for that!